There's much I could say but only one thing really on my heart. Please, I ask of you, once again, to uphold our marriage in prayer. God knows the details but we do need your prayers!
I ask, too, that you would pray for me to have wisdom and clear direction as I seek much-needed counseling. The last several days I have been a teary mess! Just as I my physical healing is progressing much faster than it would on its own, with the tools given me in therapy, I believe the wisdom and guidance of a counselor will aid my emotional and spiritual progress as well. I didn't think this would be an easy journey, but folks, this stroke thing is just plain hard, all the way around. Much harder than anything else I have ever faced.
The last thing the chiropractor said to me before he started the adjustment
that led to the strokes, was, "Just relax," so I am having major trust
issues these days, especially when it comes to health-care providers! Last week was especially taxing with so many different appointments all week long. Starting on the 30th (as currently scheduled) next week looks just as hard, with several new specialist to see and tests to endure. I still have two appointments that I'm awaiting returned call to
schedule. It's a lot to keep track of and not let any balls drop. I'm not good at this professional patient thing! It's often so very scary.
Today I walked into therapy, carrying my walker. The therapist smiled and said that while this was not a way walkers are normally used, that he was glad to see me experimenting with walking skills. He says that because of my tachycardia (balance challenges) I am still at unusually high risk of falls, but we are making progress. I still use the walker extensively, to catch myself whenever I loose my balance (a lot).
Today I walked in grass without the walker forr the first time. I was shocked by how uneven smooth-looking ground actually felt. My therapists (2 still walk with me, for safety) had to catch me several times.
I also walked and had to scan a large room for a scavenger hunt. My kids probably would have found all the cones ("hidden" in plane sight) really quickly, but it was a real challenge for me!
I was exhausted, sweaty and stinky after that exertion (never thought I would describe a walk across a small lawn that way) but I still managed 15 minutes on the seated step climber after all that. I felt like throwing in the towel after just a few minutes, but pushed on and more than met my goal of 1,000 steps. The therapist has stopped slowly decreasing the tension in the machine to teach me muscle control, and has moved it to a significantly higher level, to be a cardio workout. I still managed to log 1,049 steps in those 15 minutes!
Please continue to keep my friend, Kendra in your prayers. She is still in ICU (over a week now) and had surgery for a tracheomstomy today (something I, thankfully avoided all together). While I am still having some swallowing issues, I really feel for Kendra! For perspective, I was only in ICU for six days, the first time around!
Update: Stroke of Grace has become In Darkness Sing and has moved to JenniferSaake.com.
Thirty-nine-year-old Jennifer Saake (founder, Hannah's Prayer Ministries), experienced 6 strokes via vertebral dissection at a chiropractic office, including brain stem and cerebellum bleeds, in Oct. 2011. Jenni remained hospitalized for nearly 2 months and was not expected to live (near death experience) nor recover, but if she even survived, she was slated to live out her days in a nursing home or, best case, to maybe come home but wheelchair-bound and needing 24-hour care. At 5 years, 7 months God showed how He was writing her story from the beginning.
Jenni is currently writing more books and stays active on both Facebook and Pinterest. Stroke of Grace became In Darkness Sing in early 2018 and has moved, along with all five of Jennifer's active blogs, to one location at JenniferSaake.com.
Since Jenni's chiropractor carried no insurance and moved out of the country soon after the accident (thus avoiding any legal or financial consequences), if you would like to help contribute to the Saake (pronounced like the two small words, say and key) family's massive financial needs (medical expenses alone are estimated to cost between $1- and $1.5- Million in Jenni's lifetime), please visit Jennifer Saake's Stroke Survivor GoFundMe Page. (This support information has been added in direct response to several reader requests.) The Saakes sincerely thank you for your prayers and if God prompts and equips you to send any monetary assistance as well, this is a significant added blessing.