There is mild nerve damage (in both ears) that will not be able to be addressed with present technology. The bigger concern is that there seems to be something that is preventing the nerve's capable function from being realized, resulting in dramatic hearing loss in that left ear.
Since I am already at the end range of hearing loss that current aids might even be able to assist, we have chosen to try to address it sooner rather than later, as I likely will continue to loose hearing as I age. Hopefully this surgery will extend the number of years until I need hearing aids, though it is likely I will still need them fairly early in life, maybe even in addition to the surgery.
The surgery was initially to be scheduled for TOMORROW morning, but since I am on blood thinners, we are needing to establish a game plan with my prescribing doctor first. I must be off the blood thinners (or on ones with a much shorter half life) for a full week before surgery can efficiently be preformed.
At this point, I am to take my medication daily, for the rest of my life. So surgery is currently being delayed indefinitely, contingent on whatever medication decision is made by my first surgeon who placed the stents. How frustrating to need surgery due to the strokes, but be unable to seek surgery at this time, also due to the strokes!
My physical therapist, who has has been so wonderful, and I talked via phone this week. Emotionally, I would have liked to go back to him in July, for further rehabilitation. Medically, he highly encouraged me to consider a different therapy location and a therapist specializing in neuro impairments. As a result, I am scheduled at another facility for both occupational and physical therapy, starting the morning of the 9th of July.
That same day (in the afternoon) I am to see my neurologist again. We will talk about my emotional fluctuations, the possibility of trying to regain my driver's license, and I'm sure whatever else he has on his agenda.
I seem to be doing very well, emotionally, today, after having a very bad last few days. Worrying about Rick last night could have been the start of a "breakthrough" like I've been praying for. I woke up, not even tempted to cry this morning (almost unheard of in recent months!), so thankful am I that he is OK. I have been dealing with PBA today, laughing uncontrollably at times, but the depression seems better. I'll give it some time to prove the change, but right now I am hopeful!
Here is the verse that has been playing through my mind since yesterday morning's post,:
The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure. Who can understand it? - Jeremiah 17:9