Well, yes, I can believe it is June already. Or rather, I can't believe that it is only June. I know where all your time went. It seems to be piled up at my house, heavy on my hands.
This has been a terribly long year already. I type that it has been seven months since the start of the stokes and I have to double check my dates. Really? Only seven? It seems so much longer than that. A different life-time ago, in fact.
I now see my life divided three ways, pre-stroke, post-stroke, and Heaven. I know, in light of Eternity, both the pre-stoke and post-stroke seasons are only the blink of an eye, but right now it seems so terribly long!
My husband is trying to encourage me that Friday is coming and the kids will be home for good then. Friday seems a LONNNGGGGGGG way away. While I am beyond thrilled that they are coming home, I have to get through this week first. That seems more than daunting.
It has been a bad morning. I'm an emotional wreck. Rick is caught in my cross hairs again.
I used to say, "Time moves so differently this side of infertility," because the same amount of time that seemed endless, waiting for kids, seemed to flash by at lightning speed after kids. I hope, come November or December, you can here me asking, "Can you believe it is almost the start of a new year?" We'll see.
Maybe by then, I will at used be used to the fact that it is 2012 now, a date change that seemed to bypass me since it was still 2011 when I went into the hospital and time started to stand so still!
The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.
But I will sing of your strength, in the morning I will sing of your love; for you are my fortress, my refuge in times of trouble.
Trust in him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to him, for God is our refuge. Selah
for though a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again, but the wicked are brought down by calamity. [I love this verse. All will fall at times. Trial isn't a sign of God's lack of favor, It is what happens next, God's power to redeem in brokenness, that makes a difference.]
Like a bad tooth or a lame foot is reliance on the unfaithful in times of trouble.
He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the hearts of men; yet they cannot fathom what God has done from beginning to end.
When times are good, be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
For there is a proper time and procedure for every matter, though a man’s misery weighs heavily upon him.
Moreover, no man knows when his hour will come: As fish are caught in a cruel net, or birds are taken in a snare, so men are trapped by evil times that fall unexpectedly upon them.
He went away a second time and prayed, “My Father, if it is not possible for this cup to be taken away unless I drink it, may your will be done.”
1 Peter 5:6
Humble yourselves, therefore, under God’s mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time.
My times are in your hands; deliver me from my enemies and from those who pursue me.