I saw my neurologist yesterday. (I go back in 3 more months.) He said that every time he sees me I have made visible improvement and that my speech is clearer. I told him, "Not bad for someone who should be dead, right?" He laughed and said I was certainly "playing on house money" now. (Don't get that figure of speech? Maybe it's a Nevada / gambling state thing, because I totally understood that he was agreeing that any degree of living I experience now is on borrowed time, all grace! I simply shouldn't be here. My continued recovery shocks all the "experts.")
I don't know what to say about counseling. My gal is WONDERFUL and such an answer to prayer! Our lives have been too crazy to be fiction for probably 5 years now (well, our whole 20+ years of marriage, really, but some absolutely unbelievable things in more recent years, even aside from the strokes). Last week was the first time I was able to walk R. through the whole timeline of these past few years leading up to the strokes. She kept stopping me to clarify and confirm what I was saying. At the end of the hour she just was shaking her head and exclaimed, "Wow! Now I understand a little better!"
She had heard various references to my immediately pre-stroke years and how certain past experiences colored my current thought processes and recovery journey, but she hadn't heard it all as one continual timeline, as I perceive events. I guess any one of a number of events and circumstances should have landed me in her office, and she seemed genuinely amazed and overwhelmed by so much in such a tight time frame. She's made several comments to the effect that she is rather in awe of how I am doing. All I can say is that any credit is due to God!!!
The funny thing is, that after going to her for all these months, I think R. just today figured out that I am actually a published author. :) (Lots of people talk of writing books, but few really ever do.) I got to walk her through my whole story of how I became published. Talking about writing is something I'm passionate about, so that was fun! I'm going to try to remember to take her a copy of my book one of these weeks. I also need to refocus my effort and attention on finishing the last bit of the current manuscript I'm working on and start the process of querying publishers!
I'm physically really tired these days. Crawling into bed before 8 PM and dragging myself back out of the covers after 8 AM. But while I'm up. life is usually very full and busy. I think I've been home a combined total of about 5 hours since I woke up this morning (and am headed back to bed as soon as I finish this post). Two appointments tomorrow, water therapy Friday, and somewhere in the mix we need to fit in school for the younger two (still home with me for the rest of the school year).
Our oldest started public school last week and is still feeling the stress of adjustment (thank you for prior and ongoing prayers) but is doing well, all things considered. I am doing, emotionally, better than expected with this change. It helps so much knowing that he will be home again at the end of each day, so in many ways our eight months of prior separation make a change that would have otherwise been absolutely devastating for me before, quite bearable now. It has been hardest on the younger two who have had their big brother with them pretty much 24/7, since birth, and now aren't seeing him at all, during daylight hours. Rick, as the only driver in the family, is feeling the strain of schedule juggling too. We covet your ongoing prayer as we all have our lives pretty dramatically shaken up with this change!
I guess that's about it at the moment. I'll try to hit more of the physical report (no significant changes on any pain levels or areas of functionality) at my 15-month update in another 10 days.
Restore us, O God Almighty; make your face shine upon us, that we may be saved.