Yesterday was my last scheduled appointment with R, my wonderful Speech Therapist. Hopefully I will soon be receiving the desired referral to the local university's voice program, but it is sad (and amazing and exciting and a little overwhelming) to think that more than a year and a half of ST is over!
Tomorrow is my last (currently) planned PT day, specifically tied to the strokes. My physical therapist thinks I could benefit from ongoing therapy, but we also wants to save some insurance coverage for the future, in case I were to need additional rehab in the face of another surgery or injury or anything like that, especially given my added stroke-related potential struggles. So we have spent the last several sessions intensively drilling things I can work on at home without her regular and ongoing coaching. Recovery, therapy, is far from over, will be a lifetime pursuit, no doubt, but scheduled PT sessions with a therapist are coming to an end for now.
For the first couple months these were daily therapies. When I came home, still 3 or 4 times a week. Still at least weekly long after that. The last few months, formal PT has been at once every other week (with daily gym or home therapy work-outs in between) and ST had tapered down to just once a month. After having this be so much a part of my new, post-stroke life, it feels a little intimidating, and a whole lot freeing, to be closing these chapters of my life this week! I had wondered if or when this might ever come about!!! I expected to be nothing but beyond thrilled, and I am so very happy and thankful. I am surprised to also be processing a bit of panic and abandonment emotions. Odd! (But then again, what about this journey isn't odd?)
|How I thought I would feel!|
|How I find myself surprised to actually be feeling, as well. Both pictures via Facebook.|
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