Update: Stroke of Grace has become In Darkness Sing and has moved to JenniferSaake.com.

Thirty-nine-year-old Jennifer Saake (founder, Hannah's Prayer Ministries), experienced 6 strokes via vertebral dissection at a chiropractic office, including brain stem and cerebellum bleeds, in Oct. 2011. Jenni remained hospitalized for nearly 2 months and was not expected to live (near death experience) nor recover, but if she even survived, she was slated to live out her days in a nursing home or, best case, to maybe come home but wheelchair-bound and needing 24-hour care. At 5 years, 7 months God showed how He was writing her story from the beginning.

Jenni is currently writing more books and stays active on both Facebook and Pinterest. Stroke of Grace became In Darkness Sing in early 2018 and has moved, along with all five of Jennifer's active blogs, to one location at JenniferSaake.com.

Since Jenni's chiropractor carried no insurance and moved out of the country soon after the accident (thus avoiding any legal or financial consequences), if you would like to help contribute to the Saake (pronounced like the two small words, say and key) family's massive financial needs (medical expenses alone are estimated to cost between $1- and $1.5- Million in Jenni's lifetime), please visit Jennifer Saake's Stroke Survivor GoFundMe Page. (This support information has been added in direct response to several reader requests.) The Saakes sincerely thank you for your prayers and if God prompts and equips you to send any monetary assistance as well, this is a significant added blessing.

Monday, November 18, 2013


I'm not sleeping well the past week. After about a year of no dreaming that I can remember (I do well remember early dreams of trying to align pre- and post-stroke physical realities in the hospital and for the first few months after I came home, but my dream world had been blessedly quiet for many months now) , this week has been horrid, filled with vivid nightmares (lots of hospital flashbacks and more) and lots of sleepless hours. I wonder if all the uptake in REM sleep is healing (at least when I actually do sleep) to the brain, though, as my husband put it so well, "not to the soul"! Other than the kidney stone discomfort, I have no idea why my sleep patters might have so abruptly changed again?

One of the funnier dreams (though still stressful/upsetting enough to jolt me awake, drenched in sweat, by problem number three) was taking a college entrance exam and not being able to get into college because I can't tell you what an adjective does now (really, I can't, even awake, as most technical language ability was wiped out in the strokes) and because I couldn't name a specific city in Maryland (geographic knowledge was also hard hit by the strokes). I'm glad I woke up by the third question because test anxiety was high! It took about 10 minutes for my heart to slow its pounding once I awoke, enough for me to go clean up and slather on deodorant! I think this particular dream was spurred on my a few recent encouragements that I should go back to college (I really had no desire, even before the strokes!) and by recent testing and/or college-related projects my nephew (congratulations on your amazing score, D!), son (such a cool idea, can't wait to see it come to fruition, J) and daughter (way to go in taking 12th in state, girly!) were all involved with this past week. At least this one dream sort of makes scenes.

Give It 100 - Day 2 of 100
My sweet hubby really isn't sure about my 100-day plan. He isn't telling me not to try, he is just worried, wants to protect me, doesn't want me to hurt myself. I don't want to get hurt either! It's been two years of taking risks and pushing my limits though. I have terribly mixed emotions about this project now. As my physical therapist puts it, "It is scary to watch you try new things! It makes everyone uncomfortable to watch so we would be happier if you didn't try, but if you don't try you don't learn!"  I want to push the envelope but I want to honor my husband even more. If I knew I could do this for 100 days without ever hurting myself in the process, there would be little conflict in my heart. Since I don't know that, I am torn between the desire to better  myself, to prove myself, really, and the desire to protect the hearts of my loved ones. I want to show everyone that I can do this! Pride? (bad) Determination? (good) Some of each? (probably) Am I trying to do this in my own strength or Christ in me? Please pray that I make wise decisions here!
Proverbs 3:24
When you lie down, you will not be afraid; when you lie down, your sleep will be sweet.

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