When I broke rule after rule, shatter expectations on every level, left the doctors marveling and questioning their own medical training, the default answer became, "It's got to be your age. Your recovery is only because you have youth on your side." When God's not in your thought process, you scramble for whatever logic allows you peace of mind.
Remember how I wasn't going to survive at all? Not the first day or night, not the first week, never come home from the hospital except maybe to a nursing home...
Here's a boy who stroked the very same week I did, 6 days after my first two strokes. He's only 21 now, so was 16 when he stroked (my oldest son's age now!), a full 23 years YOUNGER than I am. Here he is a little over a week ago. His reality today is a realistic example of the significantly optimistic prediction of my best case scenario!
- The first video snippet is about 20 seconds long. To get a better feel for Howard Wicks' story, be sure to scroll down and watch the bottom, 3-minute video!
Am I saying God would have been any less powerful, divine, in control, full of grace, if this (or worse) were my reality today? Am I saying I have some sort of corner on faith and can take credit for a life that broke the rules? Am I saying there is any lack in Howard to be so young and yet still so physically damaged, that he hasn't trusted God enough or tried hard enough in his therapies?
NO! Absolutely NOT!!!
What I am saying, is let's give credit where credit is due!
Sure, I have youth on my side, and that certainly didn't hurt in the brain rewiring department. Yes, I had thousands of people praying for me, cheering me on, dozens directly encouraging me and hands-on helping our family. My doctor and therapy teams were amazing. All of that was to my advantage!
But bottom line, the only reason my story doesn't match Howard's story, is because God wrote a different script for me than the medical textbooks said my story was slated to look like.
Why me? Why not Howard? I don't know.
I'm thankful to be the recipient of this miracle, but I sure don't deserve it.
God can bring glory to Himself through an undamaged mind locked inside a broken body. He can bring glory to Himself through a damaged brain learning to function in a surprisingly recovered body. He could bring glory to Himself through total recovery of all levels of brain, body and spirit. I'm thankful He's making the decisions about who is entrusted with what outcome!